If God gave you what you wanted, you probably wouldn’t grow much at all, because devotion to God is not about getting, it is about seeking shelter. When you seek shelter, when you give up hope of anything else, you get God.
What is the greatest attainment in life? What is the most precious treasure in life? It is the realization of one’s eternal soul; it is the fulfillment of one’s heart’s desire to awaken our eternal love of God. That is the purpose of religion
The more everyone makes spiritual advancement, the more everyone is happy in that state, the more God is happy. So, that should be our happiness. Then there is no envy or jealousy. There is only competition of who could serve each other better. That is a beautiful state of mind.
We cannot force our way into the spiritual world. We cannot force our way to realization. Everything can only come by mercy. God bestows his mercy and reveals himself according to the devotional love that we have.